Spread The Love.'

2006-12-02T00:54:00.001+08:00

It's so simple and complicated.

woah. its 1am on a saturday morning. yeah. ive got bb camp. TODAY. im going to sleep at pulau HANTU. yeah. thats not scary. hahaha. okay. nevermind. gotta go. catch up on my sleep. yeaah. haha. tonight is just a i dont feel like sleeping night. hahaha. i know im gonna die tmr. but. i cant help it if i cant sleep.. right? uh-huh. alrite. ill try. haha. goodnight.! ><

smileeeeeee. and ill be just fine. (:

2006-12-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

2006-12-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

Saying i love you, aint gonna help.

nope. not thinking so much isnt going to help. lol. yeah.. if i cant even answer my own voices.. thats really bad. haha. ive been wondering. i have so many friends, good friends. why? lol. its like. i have no distinct group of closer friends or anything like that. everyones just kinda. the same. well. i kinda treat everyone rather equally, kinda luh. lol. and ive never really trusted anyone with everything that i had. i guess thats why i never had a best friend. for me. best friends are only considered if they both regard each other as their best friend. lol. and i never had one. yeah. sad right. i know someones whos just like that too. but i just cant.. i dont know. its hard to make ppl open up to me.
yeah. cant blame them. im naturally retarded and crazy and i dont seem one bit human. well. IM GONNA PWN YOU IN OLVLS. okay nvm. random and off topic. but i will la. haha. everyones looking down on me. and soon they will realize my power. lol. but when they finally realize, its too late. :O anw. im very selective about the people who i share my problems with. and those who know, have figured out that im a quite, or rather, a very emo person. and my problem. is very complicated and long.

well. ranting over my own sad story isnt going to help either.
gotta get my groove on.

2006-11-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

actually i did have something to blog about.. but ive lost it. haha.

i was walking back from the bus stop just now. staring at the almost half yet not totally half moon just now. and i starting thinking again. wahahaha. well. lately, ive been hearing 2 voices in my head. and i never even knew i had them in me. lol. one was the 'good' and the other was the 'not so good'. well. its weird. heh. must be me enjoying myself so much in the holidays that ive already lost it. heh.

give up. and move on with life.
but its something that you have always wanted. can you bear to.
no. its different already. you dont need it anymore. it wont happen. just let go.
are you sure thats what you really want?

no. i dont know what i want. damn you voices.
well, i think im getting a lil insane.

2006-11-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

There's nothing here worth saving,
No one here at all.
It will be a day like this one;
When the sky falls down.

Sometimes.I just place my trust and hope in all the wrong people.
i make all the wrong choices of picking my good friends.most of them. well i havent actually had a best friend for a very long time. that sad. i know.
Of course the reason that i even DID place my trust in them, is cause they have somehow been close to me in a way or another. okay. ill be frank here. im the kinda guy who does NOT like to argue and be angry and stuff like that. there are some people that i constantly pray for and worry about, even if they may not be THAT close to me. i know im like. i dont really make this known. and they probaly dont even know that i even gave a crap about them. but somehow or another, just worrying about them has like.. raised their level of importance to me? i read their blogs, try to get closer to them, share their problems, and stuff like that. and when they just react with things like, oh youre just some normal friend, just like all the others.. and its.. very..'ugh'.
God has been giving me this prompting.He has been speaking to me. and also giving me names, to help the people around me to the best that i can.even tho ive been messing in many things that ive not needed to be messing around in, its okay. even if you dont care about me, but your problems have been solved, its okay. as long as it just provides me with this..
inner peace.
and im very very thankful for that. haha. (:

I dont need to make sense. cause this is MY blog.

Is this what they call freedom?
Is this what you call pain?
Is this what they call discontented fame?
It will be a day like this one;
When the world caves in.

2006-11-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

okay.. my blog is being messed around with.. but nvm. its friendly messing around. lol. ive been darn tired. for like everyday. haha. need to like.. kinda get alive again. haha. lets hope service tmr will help. sigh. so many camps coming up. and ALL on fridays AND saturdays. crap this la. lol. camps are killers im telling you. haha. i think i have. a spilt personality or something. its either that. or i have moodswings and short term memory mixed together. haha. been so distracted lately. heh. screw la. i have no money to buy coke. walaooooooooooo. i dont wanna sell useless vaccumm cleaners to my friends lah!!! wth... gay. ill go ko myself now. goodnight.

from the highest of highs to the depths of the sea.;
creations revealing your majesty.

Lord, i dont want to drift any further from You.
cause youre an amazing God.

2006-11-25T13:00:00.000+08:00

Show off that body youve got, youve got the dancefloor so hot.;

dance music is getting the better of me. oh yeahh. everyones turning into step up fans! wooo. heh. well. nco council was quite boring. i meant very. haha. but with 33rd around nothing can possibly be boring. heh. well. ill be going some adidas fair later at expo. and maybe watch happy feet. lol. today was the most wonderful beauty sleep in my whole life. 15 hours. LOL. and really. the dreams were.retarded. haha. dont wanna say. aft yall laugh at me. ): tee.

2006-11-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

alright mann! time to rejoice. haha. both my job applications got thru! that means,hopefully, ill get 1k in 2 weeks. muahaha. pls support my buy the stuff im selling. PLEAASEEEEEE. haha. and ill treat you next time! :)

went to school tdy. for.. NOTHING. i didnt save and the whole thing crashed on me. -.-" oh well. haha. got abit of chem and amaths done. nco camp tmr. i was trying to figure out what was a day camp. lol. now i know. and the bloody nco camp better be fun. haha. well. wont be very free in the first 15 days of december. haha. so gotta study more now.

thats about all for tdy. gotta go find ppl to play dota!

you catch me when i fall.;

2006-11-21T13:03:00.000+08:00

Back from everything. yeah. finally. some time to myself. ill do a short post before going off to study. dont tell me im crazy.

just changed to blogger beta and ive gotta say its almost the same. but at least i have a google account now. lol. =="

ldc2 was.. kinda unexpected. i packed like 1hr b4 the camp started. lol. everyone expected it to be a very. very. hard camp? as in physically. but when we got there the discipline was like crap, we were told it was a fun camp. haha. and bloody hell. i just realized our school is rubbish.lol. i see ppl there who are sec3 and have 4stripes. FOUR. we only have 2. -.- wa sians. well. the games and bonding stuff were quite fun. lesssons kinda boring. always see daniel sim at the other end of the room pointing at the officer presenting and saying drugs, or beer. lol. but really. the officer was like some drunkard joker. hahahaha. we all were laughing. like mad. anw. nat was in my group so it wasnt all that boring. haha. i broke my cup -.-. well, ill update more abt tt in due time. uh-huh.

well. im looking for a 2 week job. anyone have pls tell me.

yeah. im kinda low on cash. and seems like one job is not enuff. because. yeah. if i didnt tell you, my computer exploded. as in. exploded. yeah. the motherboard and graphic cards are totally smoked. spent a good 400-600 bucks just getting new parts (even in simlim!!) damn ex la. sians. so now. im in debt. haha. and i havent got all those bdae and christmas presents. im at an all time low. haha.

chris just asked me to soccer. and i said no. cause i really needa study. ive spent one week not doing any work. just camps and play. screw this. still got nco camp on friday. suxxors la. i really wanted to do so many things la. but i never finished what i started. in sec3 and sec2 i should have done all those stuff. but now its sec4 alr. sec4 leh. damn fast. i guess all my skateboarding, drumming, biking, dancing, yoyoing, gaming, computing, and all other crap inculding my job, will have to wait till after olvls. and if i do well. everything will work. cos my parents are giving me 50 bucks for every A i get. so if i get 6As thats 300 bucks. haha. and jc wont be a problem. thats good.

this is kinda. retarded. but im kinda stuck on dance. yes. dance. haha. my playlist now is pretty much all dance songs. like step up soundtrack. :) oh well. i had a weird dream yesterday. popular was giving away free crumplers. okay nvm. random. lol. movie next week anyone. ANYONE. next week. haha.

need. to. have. some. dota. ownage. now.

i need that feeling. haha. the ownage feeling. but it will have to wait till next week. or something. haha. need.. ownage. now.

haha. ive been having moodswings lately. screw moodswings. and its really messing up my life. ive NOT been behaving the way i should always be behaving.properly. stuff like vulgarites are coming out so freely. this sucks. it really sucks. and emoness is flowing out like its free or something. ill fix this.somehow.

-"if God wants you to trust Him, He puts you in a place of difficulty. if He wants you to trust Him greatly, He puts you in a place of impossibility. For when a thing is impossible, then we who are so prone to move things by the force of our own being can say, 'Lord, it has to be You. I am utterly, absolutely nothing.' "
-Donald Grey Barnhouse.

found this on shengs blog. i think its really meaningful. (:
alright. off to study. hope you enjoyed reading. :D

2006-11-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

Beautiful, beautiful movie. For anyone who hasnt caught - Step Up, well, you should. :) Really great dance movie. even for people who arent really that interested in dancing, you should still watch. hah. excellent soundtrack, gonna get it soon, like really soon. This movie is easily much better than Take the Lead. All the choreography and stuff was great. haha. Whats more, Jenna Dewan is quite cute. HAHA. anw. heres a short clip. relax. its not that much of a spoiler.

anws. anyone who wants to catch this movie and really have nobody to go with, i wouldnt mind watching it a 2nd time. *hint hint* :D

alright. thats about all for today. that movie really just refreshed my day. or rather, life. haha.

no matter what we go through, you step up, ill step up too.

2006-11-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

OMG. EVERYTHING IS CHINESE. okay nvm. im at julias house now. yes. julia. tong. and sammi. lol. im sleeping over. anw. tmr have to leave by 7am cos she has to go to school. as you can tell. im really really bored. at least they have books to read. while im just typing away at the laptop. haha. julia has NO cable. can you believe that. anw. her house is very pretty. but its old. haha. there lotsa chocolate. and coke. and thats all i need. lalala. zzz. baah. gotta go jeremy house tmr to do drums haha. then wednesday got some dirll and adventure portfolio outing. gonna watch step up. i like the song. so the movie should be quite cool too. haha. anw, the bbq was quite fun, and swimming was fun. while we tried to do all the somersaulting and stuff. totally retarded. oh well.too bad not everyone could stay over. haha. i really wish i had someone to sms now. or. to be able to play dota now. -.- too bad julias brother doesnt play dota. hahhahahahaha. okay nvm. tv is boring. and. and. and. im darn bored. we are going to play lf2 or something. HAHA. i know. totally lame. oh well. im driven to the point that ill do anything to not die of boredom. oh well. the battery is dying. and im lazy to type more. sso i shall stop here. OKAY.
till next time.

i swear i need some music.

2006-11-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

Wow. They sure make me sound really bad.. haha. Nth to do now. Been slacking/ stoning for awhile alr. Well. Check out this site. http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm
Yep. Its kinda cool. And. Its kinda true. Haha. Here goes.

You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.

You haven't been feeling that great lately. Both physically and mentally you are exhausted. To your best friends, those who know you and love you, it shows. Your self esteem has been reduced almost to a minimum and in order to recover - and recover you will - it is necessary that you get away from it all, even if it be only for a few days.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

You are experiencing extreme emotional disappointment because it would seem that a particular relationship is no longer running smoothly. You would like to break away from this involvement completely and yet, if this were to happen, then its possible that something very important to you would be lost. You are in a quandary. You are not sure which way to turn. So on the one hand, you would like to free yourself from this attachment altogether, yet on the other, you do not want to lose anything nor risk uncertainty and the possibility of further disappointment. These contradictory and opposing emotions are now causing you considerable stress but you are putting on a brave face - pretending that you don't care.

The stress that you are experiencing at this time is due to the present situation - a situation of your own making. But trying to ignore it, hoping that it will go away, will only aggravate it further. What you need to do is to slow down - to relax and re-think the situation and by going slow, you may be amazed to find that most of your problems will resolve themselves.

this thing is a hacker im telling you. it hacks even better than me! oh well. thanks to tuckyan for the link. haha. i dont know if i shld go bbq tml doesnt seem like alot of ppl will be going. haha. sigh. oh well =/.

goodnight. :(

2006-11-11T14:40:00.000+08:00

omg. i realize whenever i sleep for more than 12 hours i get a really interesting dream.
wtf. it was a really freaky dream. and all i know is that i had a girlfriend whos shorter than me.
bbq. i didnt see her face. thats like practically every girl. and oh ya. i do have a bbq to attend. lol.

okayyy. away with the crap. heh. one week has passed. i think this week is just the begining of something great. no really. i think my timetable is perfect. haha. ill probaly finish my sec 3 stuff by mid december and ill have the rest of the days to relax/ start abit for sec 4. they are right you know. we shouldnt lose the momentum. haha. im gonna pwn chem and amaths so bad that they are as easy as pie. yes. pie. oh crap. got lotsa presnts yet to buy. =/. who knows when we needa buy books? tell mee. dum dee dum. class bbq tmr night. only knew tdy -.- lol. abit rush sia. got a feeling not many ppl will be going. haha. oh well. i recieved ANOTHER letter again. (only some of you will know) crap.. what am i going to do?! this is not good. too fast. waaayyy too fast. and if i let it go. i doubt it will come back again. screw. rain rain go away. its been raining for a few days in a row. and thats definately not good. hah. yesterdays cell was cool. not much of cell. just a gathering. dinner. haha. simon is cool. alright. nth much to blog abt. just know that i have to keep more low profile now.. =/

&when she let down her hair;
it was beautiful.

2006-11-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

wow. how timely.

hey mence. i know this is so cooo. but i was just thinkin of you. YTD NIGHT. i dono how you ve been. but i realised.. one yr back you helpped me thru alot of things and never gave up on me. and you were the best advcisor to me. and we were gooder frns and we were super good frns and we went out and played bishi bashi. and i went t your house?!!! to cook and all altho you awere not my partner. just wnnna say i miss you :) its been very long i talked t you? i dono how you feel. of cos im sure you moved on and your happy with your life. jus wna say thanks for everything yehh. catch up soon
but i wana you tell you. if you got anything.. yo ucan tell me? always. im always here for you. never leaving ok? hah. cus i know you omce told me you find it difficult to tell other ppl things or sth.. but yeh. so if you feel you can still tell me thihgs, dont bottle up stuff or anything. and you can tell me anything k? sprititual walk.. girls. . studies frns family. im here :) this 5 words i promise you :) hahah take cre.

haha. thanks SOP. no matter how totally random it was. it was really nice to hear frm you again. hah.

ALRITE NOW FOR SOMEEEEEEEEEeeeeee I AM NINJA!

WOOO~

2006-11-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

Waaa! Its the monday of the holidays!~ shoik! haha. did some physics and history. just now. gonna do emaths and a lil bit of chem later on. SEE! i AM serious about my work! dumdeedum! die laa. been talking to too many people this month. im on the verge of exceeding my phone bill! which SUCKS!. i rather get a m1 student plan or something. haha. Zz. Off to enjoy my breakk.

Its almost over now, almost over now.

2006-11-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

OMGWTFBBQ! i was so super duper worried this morning la!!! i ALMOST lost my watch. WTH!!! i was getting dressed for church then i was finding my watch then i flipped my whole rooom upside down also cannot find!!! then i was late alr. so i just left w/o it. ALL THE WHILE i was super worried but i never do anything. lol. went to clementi for pizza hut. still thinking abt the watch. actually supposed to meet at 11 but then late alr. then on the bus gina call me then i said i tot its 11.15. cos im usually on time. so if im not on time they will think something is wrong .hahahaha. okay nvm. thats not the point. isaac jeremy eunice and debbie came to our church tdy. haha. isaac rose his hand when they asked for ppl who redelicated or just became christian. hahaha. then we had to go fill up some forms and stuff. he is damn cute la. hahah. wth. well. at least he redelicated his life again. (: woo. anihoos. im darn happy. cos my mum found my watch in the midst of my books. wahhaha. CLIPPED INSIDE. woots. heh.

ROCKSTAR!

it doesnt matter, what matters is that.
you know.

2006-11-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you.
For everything I just couldn't do.
And I've hurt myself by hurting you.

What a sad song. =/ been rotting away since this morning. woke up at 12.30. and just stoned till now. was supposed to go out. but i forgot. was supposed to play soccer. but i had no mood to. was supposed to go yoyo place. but i didnt bother. i ate 3 meals since i woke up and it isnt even dinner time yet. how pig can a guy get? who wants to go jogging later? =/
been blog surfing and playing a few games since morning. continued some of my photoshop work too. finally uped my paypal to buy smth. haha. oh man. joy sim what have you donee. now even gina thinks guys are jerks. ><" i guess im just the minority then. haha. e bands coming to fcbc tmr! hurray. haha. well. havent decided wad to wear tmr. its a long time since i wore my green tie..

yeah. green tie. taken at planetshakers concert. dont mind cuifen. shes just digging my bag. -.-" haha. ill decide tmr morning then. im so bored now. drank abt 3 cans of coke in 2 hrs. i know im gonna die but dont bother. haha. ive kinda got back to the coke again. well. i cant be bothered anymore la.

bloody slackers.

oh well.
Some days I feel broken inside, but I won't admit.

(:

2006-11-03T21:17:00.001+08:00

DETENTION IS OVER!!
thank god. haha. actually dentention wasnt as bad was it was supposed to be. haha. made a few new friends. brandon. caspar. haha. cleaned the schools drains. windows. rails. everything la.. haha. those gays. went to cell on thursday. been a long time since i played basketball. actually i dont play basketball. oh well. peer pressure. ><"
haha. i think God has been really totally wonderful to me this year. and i love it. (: hehe.

well. ive spoken my mind on somethings. and. i feel rather. free. haha. burdenless. oh well. i shall pray for the better. =/

2006-11-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

2006-11-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

meet my darling.

okay. not exactly mine. but i love it.okay nvm. i shall name it as a her. cause it sounds nicer when i say i love her. yeah. I LOVE HER. wooo! Hhaha. as happy as i sound. im not. its just a 'mask' as many like to call it. oh well. extra lessons been on for 3 days. dententions been on for 3 days. not as bad. as expected. yeah. havent done my baptism testimony. sigh. havent even been really doing my book on time la.wrote a letter just to throw it away. how sad huh. maybe its just my fault. that i cant trust that you will understand. sorry.

fading. just like everything will.
but i hope not. just for that one thing.

2006-10-29T02:25:00.000+08:00

yooo hoooo test test

2006-10-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

But i really want to help you.

wow.today was the 'last day' of school. my cca points are seriously screwed up. oh well. played soccer today. it was a reaaaaaaally good game. thanks guys. sigh. cell was good too. i really dont know if i shld start on the new book or finish purpose driven lifee. =/ anw. really tired. its 1am. lalala. bloody dentention.

I could be your best friend.;
if only you bothered.

2006-10-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

&Im still waiting for you to be the one im waiting forrr.

wow. wad a busy day. watched presitige tdy. with nat rus wj chris ranen eric and sheowenn. anw. the movie was really really.. erm. it makes people stone. i mean like. the guy died like 5 times! and he's still not dead!!!. okay nvm. and the good guy was the bad guy -.- lol. you can talk to me for more of tt movie. lol. anw. gotta wake up early tmr for something at fairfield primary. gahaha. 7am -.- alrite. tata. :)

this isnt a dream.;
this is what you are.

2006-10-22T19:50:00.000+08:00

YEAAHAHAHAHA. okay im a sadist.

GOT A FREE WIRELESS DESKTOP SET WORTH $180! gahaha. woot. alright. ive taken leave. finally. hahhaha. time to slack.hehe. church was great today! everyone came! :) saw this omgwtfbbq nice shirt at nike just now when i went to pick up my desktop. and its only 33.50!!! hint hint. wenjie. :D. lol. gosh. maybe i shouldnt have taken leave. then i could be earning more money to buy more stuffs. =/

oh well. thou shall not be greedy.

will start revision again when october ends. but now.. this last week is really just time to relax. haha. yep. im freee.

haha you could just tell me in the face.

2006-10-21T12:34:00.000+08:00

You might think im losing my mind.
You sure got that right.

Cause who i am hates who ive been.

Yesterday was hell. okay actually not really. but wtf. i came home at 6. nobody at home. made dinner. got into my room. offed all the lights in the house. slept till 9. still nobody at home. called my parents. nobody picked up. gawd. miss hia alr called my other friends parents. but my parents nvr even call me. or anything. so wad.

I woke up at 12 today. thank god my father is an understanding person. or rather. he cant be bothered with me already. he didnt scold me a single bit. but my mum just nagged for awhile. it all ended in around 10 mins. a big wow rite.

well. actually im pretty fine and i can make a living for myself already. from my work at com repairs and stuff. i mean like. even my freaking hobby. photoshopping. can earn me extra cash. but no. thats not enough.. i want to make it big. heh.

great.. now my parents are nice again. -.-" i think sometimes. i worry more about other people than myself. when im actually the one doing the worst among all of us. sigh. alrite. end of year troubles are over. what awaits me in the future is just fun and studying. im so gonna catch up with everything. zz.

random notices.

kat- where to find stamps? LOL
wenjie- happy birthday!
all- happy deepavali! i dont know how to spell.

love is blind.
so am i.

okay thatt made no sense.

2006-10-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

For the taste
For the sight
For the sound
For the fight
For the weak
For the strong
For the light
Say it like,
You say it like you mean it;
For the wait
For the crush
For the fear
For the lush
For the love
For the hate
For the touch
Just say it like
I will wait out for you.

NO. i will NOT drop chem you lil piece of crap. neither will i drop amaths. ill take ur dumb retest anytime. stop thinking so freaking lowly of me. just because you are the teachers doesnt mean you are always right. doesnt mean you can always scold people for no ryhme or reason. i have never said i didnt like my teachers. i know the shit they have to put up with. we are not so darn self centered okay. im telling you. 3d can own anyone. anytime. If only we bothered. so please just screw off about those thoughts about us not being able to make it to jc.

heyhey. emo please go away. you dont need to add on to this.
please? i dont miss you. i dont need you. not here.
but then. i know im still fucking lying to myself.

2006-10-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

The best is when you say the worst is over
It's like saying we had luck with a three leaf clover
And you kept saying that over and over
And I still catch you looking over your shoulder
And it's okay, I know the only times you really loved me
Were the times when you weren't sober
And that hurts
We all hurt.;

wow. emo song.

!Clemence. +10) ™; &Tears won't tame your misery.; says:
i think i spoilt my lift la
theres a dent in the wall
FOREVER

joyyeyoy; shout your fame says:
hahah serious! oh man poor lift

☺aiwee says:
lol
SIAO

sorry lift. :( gah. got my results tdy. very badd. i shall only say the good ones!. EMATHS 80! woo. erm.. ENGLISH 72! WOOOOo. CHinese 69!! okay no more. hahahahaha. go away. i fail 3 okay.. LEAVE ME ALONE. *sniff* stupid wenjie bdae coming. nat also.. bastards.. only want to make me spend money rite!! dun lie.. hahahah. congrats to those who done well. for those who never do as well.. talk to me. haha. sian.. emo songs. FILL ME. oh ya.. daniel = hahaha.
LOL.

This isn't a game
Who do you think you are
I'll take the blame
But that won't heal your scars.

(:

2006-10-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

Im reaching for your heart,
you hold my life in your hands
drawing me closer to you,
i feel my power renew

nothing compares to this placee,
where i can see you face to face
i worship you,
in power and in truth.

Nah. dont feel like blogging about results today. i sprained my thumb. *sniff*

2006-10-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

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and no. i dont need your gentle reminders.

yooohooo. went out tdy with nat n aiwee. GOSH. they are so gay. shant say much. but i love my shoes. been to town 3 times in 4 days. i dunno why town is so popular with guys. but actually id rather go vivo or something. yeah.. i know i know. i shop worse than girls okay! whats ur problems huh. i bought like. $180 worth of crap already okay. OKAY. i know. you hate me. cause im spending it like im rich. hahahaha. well. be glad you dont have to serve dentention and stuff. yep. mine is enjoy now die later. got my phone back..

91938397

i have free incoming.. yep. call me as much as you want but just dont sms too much yeah.? heh.

2006-10-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once.

today was really great. finally back to church after such a long while.but its sad to hear that some of my cell mates arent able to attend church either. sigh. i want a blazer. a red one. yep. im loving my shoes. too bad i cant wwwear them to school. or else the entire council will rape me. and i still dunno why im supposed to blog about how nice aiwee is -.-".

problems and more problems. i didnt want it to turn out this way either. im sorry. IM SORRY OKAY.
ugh. it cant just be the same again.

2006-10-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

But im just a boy standing in front of a girl;
asking her to love me.

finally over.but i dont feel right. haha. oh well. i dont really care. just enjoy the rest of my days. went lan yesterday, quite fun la. considering i didnt play for soooo long. (: haha. chingyang is sad. xD. anw. went swimming with nat russell wenjie and chris tdy. swimming AND soccer. yeap. haha.i wanna go outt. moree. before i cant.. :(

OMG> NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
my bag... *sniff* WTH!!!!!
only a few ppl know wad im talkign about.

anw. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, its is not pround. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Its always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

just what are you trying to tell me now.

2006-10-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHH. DARN IT. WTH. I SPILLED COKE ALL OVER MY DESK. IM SO GONNA GET A NEW KEYBOARD. THIS IS TOTALLY GROSS. THE KEYS ARE STICKY. THE TABLE IS STICKY. THE MOUSE IS STICKY. MY CAMERA IS STICKY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ALL THE STICKYNESS. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. OMG. okay theres seriously something wrong. my windows button is Ctrl and my Ctrl button is delete. lol. My shift isnt working well either.

*SNIFF*

alright. ONE MORE DAY!! AMATHS ONLY.. 1HR.. 40MARKS.. im gonna be feeling good abt this test. so i can party aft tt. sigh. dun have any activities on after tml. ): haha. as usual, ive been thinking. and thinking. and thinking OMG my full stop button suddenly stopped working,,, IM NOT LYING/// wad the heck haha alrighty then, ill be off to study my amaths, tata,
okay,,, my alt button is enter now, haha, the wonders of coke, yep,

i know i wont be leaving here;
with you.

2006-10-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

i really feel like blogging a 3rd time. this time about joys post,
the topic is that guys are jerks because they are either indecisive, not cut for the mark or too giving in.

yeah.. then girls are.. *mmhmmmmmm.* yep.
haha. shall blog abt this tml. gotta sleep and wake at 4. complete my chem shits.

nites.

cant stop thinkingggg.

2006-10-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

I dont wanna close my eyes, I dont wanna fall asleep;
Cause i miss you, baby. And i dont wanna miss a thing.

One of the few times with two posts in one day. haha. came home at 3.. slacked till now. wanted to take a nap, but my minds been filled with so many random thoughts and it just kept me awake while lying on the bed and listening to a few jay chou songs at the same time. i think emo songs really connect with me. haha. thats quite bad. oh well. its 6.51 im gonna chemistry at 715.. until.. like 11 plus. or so. yep. sigh. i really need help with chem. =\ Physics and Emaths was quite okay la. kinda expected. haha. im really scared for my ss, chem and amaths. haha. but afterall i just have to pass english and 3 other subjects. aye. -.-" then ill choing next year. haha. but everyone is choinging next year too. so.. no point. i guess ill just choing super lot. haha. :D samuels hair is scary. and my dreams are getting scarier too. as in, not all about samuels hair, but yeah. and there are of course plenty of nice ones too :D . on sunday at changi, i was just listening to joy and cuifen talk abt.."the end" and stuff. i didnt really want to comment much on it cos i myself havent really read finish revalations because i think its quite scary. haha. i know i know. im so lame rite. ugh. -.-" i guess ill finish it up next. looks quite interesting. haha. i had this.. 1 and a half hr reflection time yesterday night. from like. 10 till 11.30 plus plus. you know. sometimes when you just switch off all the music. off all the lights. (which having both at the same time is quite rare for me unless im sleeping) and just sit up on ur bed. and maybe just reflect. about everything. usually its during those kinda times that im really able to find out what my heart is troubled with. or other stuffs. thinking is quite fun. esp like dreaming kinda thinking. haha. i LOVE to imagine my future. how i would have a pretty pretty and nice wife, kids, and of course, my bmw. haha. oh ya!! i so totally love kids. i was buying ice cream this afternoon. and there was like this kiddo in front of me buying ice cream. hahahaha. kids are just so cute la. with their big and cute eyes which ALWAYS give the impression that they are asking 'why?' lol. gahahahaha. omg SO CUTE. okay nvm. 2 more days till the end of 'exams' and 3 more when it OFFICALLY ends. ah.. cant wait. shucks. i should have planned that dumb chalet la. Rahhs. OMG I SOUND LIKE JOY SIM. okay i meant RARR. nonono. then ill sound like wenjie. okay forget this. -.-" anw. i really regretted not planning la. 1a brought alot of fun. haha. all the innocence of being in a sec 1 class. :O *sniff* haha. even after all that ... 3 hours of stoning and doing absolutely nth except singing along to jay chous songs. im still confused about something. haha. clemence, dont you just enjoy doing things that you know wont have a good ending. aha. gosh. (okay that sounded gay) anw. nathanael i need to talk to you ._. oh yah. come to think of it, i suddenly feel like my friends have just suddenly begun to be close again during this exam period. but its kinda weird la. like. it happened kinda unknowningly. haha. i wanna make another wallpaper soon. really really soon. wait. did i say that. lol. i MEANT. i wanna COMPLETE my upcoming wallpaper soon. heh. do look foward to it. another masterpiece from your favourite local photoshoper. HAHA. and maybe i wanna make a new one too. ive got sudden inspiration. haha. but of course ill have plenty of time at home.. after getting grounded for hell long cos of that yellow form. WHICH i still havent told my parents about. s-i-g-h.

I just wanna hold you close.;
And make you mine again.

can you feel the emo. :O

2006-10-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

Blogger should be made more chinese friendly. as ive said before to some ppl, chinese is better at expressing words that english words cannot. ha. but blogger hates chinese -.-"

THERE. now everyone can see. you noobs. aye.
btw. i think paint really sucks. it cant even invert simple colours!!! -.- had to open my precious photoshop just to invert some lousy colours. (@&#)!(@&#!.

off to study. chem is try. -.-"

Chinese was made for songs la.
dont deny it.

2006-10-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

这该死的爱。

wahaha. me and nats new motto; gahahaha. haze is getting less homosexual these few days. and thats a good thing. haha. tmr got physics and emaths. no kick. haha. done with my revision. yep. thats all. gotta sleep early. :)

2006-10-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

ah. my mind just went. blank. *poof*. today. its like someone hit the switch off button. i worked so damn hard just to black out. yeah. oh well its over. and thanks guys. everyone. when jeremy said we are all here for you. then i looked around and saw like crowds of ppl i was like f***. but oh well. thanks.i guess ive changed my end year goals to do not drop amaths and do not retain.

whatever god has for me. regardless of being a yellow form, rubbish marks, irregularity report or being barred from the learn@ fairfield. i know i have the faith. to believe that it will all turn out good in the end.

please enjoy the ownage song.

2006-10-06T04:19:00.000+08:00

its 4.13 am in the morning and HELL that was one damn dream. it was like. after my o levels or something. i think. i was on really good terms with all my friends. it was really weird la. like in this. renovated dover market and there was this super big lcd tv. lol. okay nvm. my 2mins is up. time to go study. NOW. goodbye.

GAhh. im sleepy.

2006-10-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

Clemence oh clemence. WHY THE HELL DID YOU GO AND SLEEP SO EARLY LAST NIGHT/ oh yeah. because of that. darn itt.i failed to wake up in the morning. yeah you should be able to guess wad happened. I TOTALLY SCREWED up my geog paper. if i pass i would jump for joy. whichever joy. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. you know what. my hair has suddenly become FLAT. wTH. its a long time since its been flat. and its quite cool. just have to wax up the sides. RAR. amaths and history tmr. im so gonna die again. actually i wont. if i start studying like NOW. and i dont sleep until like. 3?! thats wad i did. and i think i can get like 90+ for my emaths paper. haha. but i was damn sleepy today. in the classroom. i was like writing and almost falling asleep. told you lvl 4 classrooms were bad. GAWD.

You make me fly.

2006-10-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

i shall not complain.
i shall not complain.
i shall not complain.

Core geog's a killer. My thoughts have been quite wierd lately. Seriously. I have no idea what is wrong with me. but i know im so gonna die. this 'im looking forward to it' feeling that i had when exams just started is like totally gone now. not because i cannot study. not because i know i didnt do well in the past 2 papers. but because of that. but i still shall not complain. no matter how many vulgarites. how much shit i want to say. i wont say it. but the study mood i had got is totally.. gone. forever. i just want to let go now. but this is the worst time to do so. my mind was this close to blacking out in the emaths test. im scared. im really scared. on the verge of breaking down. i dont want to continue with my papers.. postpone them to next month or something. Help me. Feeling so moodless. ill get a good sleep. and when i wake up. hopefully nobody will remind me about that incident anymore. and ill be able to revise the final bit of geog in that 2 hours.

If only you were here,
right by me.

2006-10-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

what makes you different;
makes you beautiful.

ah. great. with all the shit thats going on in school. my mood is totally screwed up. i cant. i cant concentrate anymore. really. after having a really long prayer. the answer came to me. forgive and forget. but i really cant bring myself to do it. not now at least. its a damn yellow form, dentention and 4 demerit points. for someone who has never gotten that in his whole life before, it sure is something to make a huge fuss over. hopefully my parents would understand. and i screwde up my ss.. i missed out the whole question. zz. alright. off to study.

Lord, please forgive me.
once more.

2006-10-01T19:50:00.000+08:00

I love you well enough to know youll never love me.

Ah. sleepover = failure. with mark luke and ben. hahahahaha. supposed to be 70% study 30% others. it was more like 35% study 65% others. okay i shall not talk abt studies. since there isnt much to study. k. study then eat dinner. thats where the fun began. played quake and marvel vs capcom. then went jogging/skating/ biking at 9.30. reached. i jogged luke skated and mark biked. to clementi.. to meet ben who was biking. then we reached clementi at 10.went to jumbo. saw kenneth watching soccer lol. then went to safra at mount faber. we reached at 11.30 so there was only 30 mins to play cos it closed at 12 when th door says its closes at 3. lol. played around 5 rounds of the fastest pool i have ever played. and i did a perfect jump shot :D. cabbed back. reached home at 1. washed bike and everything. slept at 3? after playing with the cow hamburger and heart and pillows. slept till 6. then lukey woke me up telling me he had to go -.- then i slept again till 11. haha. then they left. ate lunch. studied abit.till 5. then talked to joy on msn. hmm. is that what girls call a heart to heart talk? lol. got reminded of everything. all the small things. haha. oh well. :d doo dooo doooo.

fill me;

2006-09-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

you give me wings when im fallin'
thats why i sing to you.

dont mess me up now.
studying kills. uh-huh. and my plan is uber-retarded. or rather. i am uber retarded. studied with gina cuifen and mark at bk. met up with some ppl. like nicol and sammi and jamie and joy and joshua. who i know as. the Band Major. OMG. lol. well thats wad i know him for. lol. studied.. not really productive. couldnt get my momentum going. :0 sigh. then it was 6.30 then almsot everyone left. then me and sammi went to.. o brien at some place which i cant rmb. did geog and chem and abit of physics. tmls oral. no stress. haha. but im scared. i nvr prepare nuts. then sleepover with luke and mark to study lyk hell. haha. as in. really.!~~.
all the best for al your exams. and after exams its time to rock. with the band and everything going on. i just cant wait.i cant. im gonna make damn suree. nothings gonna spoil my plans.
gotta make damn sure.

I just wanna break you down so badly..
in the worst way.

2006-09-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

Its the final part already. so i might as well go all the way.

Plan For Everyday.
5-6 Wake Up Revise Wad I Learnt Last Night
6-2.15 School
3-3.30 Reach home, Lunch
3.30-7.30 Study
7.30-8.30 Dinner, Rest
8.30-11.30 Study
11.30- 5 Sleep.

Im Gonna Do So Damn Well For My EOY.
I Know Its Worth IT.
nope. no more coming online.
just study.

S-
T-
U-
D-
Y-

Right Here. Right Now.

2006-09-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts
Really.

And no Its not just the song. ah. went to bukit merah macs today with aiwee. quite productive. considering there werent people who we knew who went there. i really wanted to go Somewhere else. cause i couldnt study cause there was this waterfall which was irritating me in the macdonalds. but im so damn glad i didnt. thank god. a week till exams. i feel as if ive never studied anything in this past 2 weeks. NOthing at all. i couldnt do that maths paper. someone help me.. please. the only thing im prepared for is geog and physics. kinda. im aiming to score a for geog physics history and emath. if i do ill be king of the world.
Jonathan and Hady. i think both are really good. but jons more of the model type, with moreee... fashion sense? and Hady is just vocally pro. lol. and he is much more professional on stage. if i pick ill say Hady is better. but ill vote for jon. yep.
Not studying tonight.. im going all the way for this next week liaos. today is the last rest. then the next week will be sleep at 11.30 wake up at 4.30 and study my ass off. shucks. i have to.. do well.
Whats this shit man.
Are you telling me ive havent really given it up?
Ah.
I guess the truth doesn’t matter somehow.;
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about.

2006-09-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

gosh. I AM DAMNNN boliao. haha.
happy birthday to aiwee and rachel!
tadaaa. no presents yet.. ive got money but no time
after exams k! LOL. and kat.. ur letter.. LMAO.
after exams.. evrything will have to wait.
sigh. *sniff*. ive got sore throat. must be the coke.
btw i do not drink 24 cans in 24 hrs.
Not that.. Bad.

-.- exams are nearing. haha. i wasted the whole day away today.
couldnt study. dont know wwhy. heck. im aiming for Olvls.
not this crummy eoys. if i dont get my phone back.. it doesnt really matter anymore.
does it?

yoyos got the better of my class.
lol. more and more distractions. -.-"
Sleep is screwing up my life
sleep at 12 wake up at 5 to study in the morning.
zzz. coke is killing me. its kinda like a drug.

After Exams, The studying will continue.
BUT. i will get back to my skating, gaming and art.
AND friends. yep.
Ive been a reaaaalllyyy bad friend.
to everyone.

*Sniff*

Stay Quiet, Stay Near, Stay Close.
They Cant Hear.

2006-09-20T20:01:00.000+08:00

Im.. really tired. of all this studying.

ohno.. wheres my damn moulin rouge cd when i wanna listen to it..
ugh..

im so tired. i think i should just stop for the night. its 8.
and sleep. and dream away my time.
maybe.
maybe not.

yeah maybe ill just do that.

oh man. sucha meaningless lifestyle.

2006-09-18T20:28:00.000+08:00

ahh.. stomachache. wad the hell did i eat. NOTHING!! wad the heck. i skipped last nights dinner and breakfast ate a normal lunch. a normal dinner. then super stomachache. lol. stayed back in school today.. 50% play 50% study. okay la. i think i would have never got started on that chemistry paper if not for wenjie. then we got carried away and played stupid things like chairball and volleyball in the bb room. oops. ah.. but who gives a shit? lol. moo. now ive gota super gigantic cow slipper in my room. its glittery.wth. lol. -.-" ughh. anw. i threw aiwee somewhere in indonesia. hahahah.

okay nvm. its quite lousy. OMG SEE THE BUSH OF HAIR. haha. but it will be really nice if i really wanted to do it. haha. too bad i was lazy to find some cool place like leaning towerr of pisa or something. haehaheh.

baah. ty to clarissa and sammi for the cow and mint sweets. (:
off to study. and play later. xD

2006-09-17T19:48:00.000+08:00

&Just when i thought nobody could see through me;
You said to me, Im really disappointed in you.

Just a short part of the dream before i woke up today.arr. slept at 3 playing dota, and woke up at 10. to call aiwee.

Me: Helloo.. Are you awake. (Sleepy)
Aiwee: Hi. Yes. Im brushing my teeth. 11 right? (Brushing teeth sound)
Me: Yep. See you later.
Aiwee: K Bye.

After 3mins.

Me: Hello..?
Aiwee: Hi. Are you awakee?
Me: Yes. Im Brushing my teeth.
Aiwee: Ahahahaha i knew it i just wanted to jack you.

Uh-huh.. d-.-b
lol.

anw, met up with aiwee at kap macs to study today.. from 11 till 6.30? wasnt that good.. but definately better than studying at home. i would have fell asleep alr la.. 7 hrs. haha. maybe i shld go queenstown lib next week and disturb wenjie. rarw. lol. k. now i can relax. while everyone is busy studying. lol. weee.

Of all people, why is it only you?
Give me an answer dammit.

2006-09-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

Sammi: I feel like going to watch a movie.
Caroline: Dont la. You still have to buy Clemence's Present.
Sammi: You do notice he is right behind me right.
Caroline: Oops. I thought he camoflauged into the wall.
Me: Right.. -.-"

How lame can the world get. d-.-b

2006-09-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

Wooo. Turtle. Why a sudden turtle you may ask? i have no idea. cause i was supposed to make pictures for ppl last time. then i forgot. :D i think i still owe a water one. or something. Picture merging and sketching. this one was quite.. fast? didnt take too long compared to marbles and cubies. about a month or so. ah. after all the picturing, back to mugging.
its not a real turtle btw. LOL.

aye aye. COME AND CLAIM YOUR PICTURES!!

2006-09-15T15:34:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. its 15th September Today.
lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAT!!!

letter will have to wait.

2006-09-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

ah. and im back on a crummy friday afternoon. todays an early day which = study more. this past week ive been studying and studying, i can do like almost all the questions but when i try to remember.. i cant. lol. as in. i cant think of anything if i dun see the question. lets see. whats on the menu today. 2hrs of emaths 2 hrs of chem and 1 hr of geog. Rawr. 5 hrs. that means i can only play at 8.30 if i start now. is this study thing even gonna work. im scared. zz. alright then. off to study. bye.

):

I have an empty stomach.

2006-09-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

dum dum dee dee dee dee dum dum dee dee dee dum.

this is how you do the whole book of zuo ye in ONE day! okay, im seriously darn bored. the last person i can talk to has gone offline! JOY SIM. ugh. then cuifen come online and she say she go do quiet time. then why not do quiet time then come online! lol. waste electricity. my hand feels numb. 2.5 hrs of amaths and 1hr of Chinese... Woot. I still have to do the chemistry or mr shawn ching will kill me. haha. im super scared of eoy. i realized i only have just enough time to study 1.5 hr per chapter to finish everything by eoy if i study 3hr a day. sians.

CUIFEN!! says:
your blog is like your spamming place huh?

YES you got a problem? lalala. 3 more chapters of zuo ye.. ODISFHSIOHFIWHOEA.

*screams*

2006-09-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

Dude! Its 11.45. GO SLEEEP.

Sigh. Sorry Sam. Im Kinda retarded when ppl waste my time. When my time is precious. haha. Msns really screwy today. Ppl say its cause of the imf thingy. haha. but i, a person who doesnt really enjoy watching or listening to news, dont really give a crap. haha. Despite all the rubbish tdy, im still able to complete my study plan, for today that is, but im kinda not satisfied. although its just 2 chapters of physics and drawing mindmaps, i was kinda distracted due to ppl like wenjie. yes. Weee™. anw. i think ill wake up 4.30 tml morning and read up a lil again. i wanna go gelare tml. i wanna eat ice cream. lotsa lotsa ice cream. sigh. i havent been doing my jogging anymore. its quite boring running alone, but ive already gotten used to it. umhmm. JEROME! hurry move overr. sigh. if i had money now, the first things i would buy are. a bmw. oops. okay nvm. i meant..

1. Rophis Present ( But I Alr Gave You A Balloon With A Chocolate Inside)
2. Cheryls Present ( But I Alr Gave You A Boat..)
3. Aiwees Present ( Not here yet.)
4. Rachels Present ( Nope. Same. Lol.)
5. Laura's LAST YEAR Present (Whoops. hahaha.)
6. Tuckyan's Present ( Those Sunglasses, Man Those are gonna cost a bomb)
7. Davids Present (Im sorry i didnt rmb.. until now. haha. )
8. Return Gina Her $50
9. Return Jarold His $75
10. Buy Those Golden Nike Dunks. ( Oooo... MINE. )

AS YOU CAN SEE. I serve others before myself. see number 10. thats the only thing i want for myself . hahaha. And darren dont come complaining cos ur birthday is still long long way. and kat i need to write a letter. hahaha. and ill show you my handwriting. tee.

Thats All For Today. Yep. My Throat Hurts.

2006-09-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

Things that i would have never thought of doing before,
Im doing them tommorrow.

Ah. The start of a new term. As they say, its never too late to change. Lets hope so.

My life plan, not just a dream, is kinda special as you can see. If a dream is something that is achieveable, i wouldnt call it a dream. i believe i was made for great things. When i get to that stage of my life i will never, forget my secondary school friends. People say secondary school friends are the closest you will get to true friends. why? cause its 4 years long and 13- 16 is just that part in life where you begin to cherish your friendships. i think so too. why? cause. even now, i feel that my friends are the most important factor that will determine which jc i would go to next next year.
i dont think anyone knows yet, but i wont be attending church for quite awhile.. maybe just the occassional cell group. my parents have asked me to stop attending church until at least my eoys are over. of course nobody wants their own son to retain in sec 3.i do have to honour both spiritual and non spiritual families but i think its more impt to honour my own parents now. i hope that after eoys i can get back to church and get baptized. please pray for me. that in this long period of time, my relationship with god will not be weakened.
its amazing how, in this period of struggle, with all the problems coming up, i can still find peace. and i really thank god for it. maybe its because now, i have truly opened up my spiritual eyes and im able to see the path that he set for me. that was how great the impact of my church camp was. to me. somehow it just feels so great being able to have so much faith in him.

On the other hand,

I think. Im a really lousy person. Really. I realize how bad ive been treating some of my friends. close friends that arent so close anymore. its really my fault by not even trying to catch up with them. some of these friends i dont even talk to. its simple things like this that make me so guilty. I want to catch up, i wanna share that closeness again. If any of you i have drifted from are reading this, im really sorry. sometimes i just dont bother when you talk to me cause im really busy or something, but thats no excuse. some of you i may not be able to catch up with now, but dont be shocked if i just call you out during the end of year hols. i wanna repair all these broken relationships. and start anew.

over these past few nights;
the bible struck me really hard.

so has my timetable.

2006-09-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

ah its 12.30 in the night, i mean morning.and this is when i got my inspiration. wee. ive got a really bad cough/sore throat due to excessive amts of coke andd. i just ate carrot cake. haha. let me tell you about my life plan. which i have told almost everyone. hahaha.

get 6 for O's and get into acjc;
do DAMN well for A's and get into NUS after army;
pick up computing and get my masters;
get a job which earns me 12k-16k a month;
get a cute wife who loves me and get married;
buy a bmw;
buy a house for my parents;
buy a house for myself;
have kids;
donate to charity and church;
live a good life.live.a christian lifestyle.

weee. hahaa. study skills and encounter will really change my life. forever, if not, for quite a long time. i feel it in the wayy. oops. stupid clay aiken. haha. crummy. got so many ppl birthday coming, ill have to skip a few meals. hahaha. but i still wanna eat pizza hut. wee.

this is some personal shit; no more. i have solved that problem. and im sure i can move on without any problems this time. somethings.. its better you dont know..

if i lay here, if i just lay here.;
would you lie with me and just forget the world.

2006-09-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

tadaaa.

man. study skills tdy. quite boring. and quite interesting at the same time. met up at macdonalds for breakfast. then off to school. seriously. 8am-9pm is retarded. too long alr really. although its interesting. people just get bored. staying in their room all the time. ramesh muttusamy ramasamy was the guy that just really caught my attention. he is just this.. gay guy who gets everyones attention. but ive gotta admit hes good at speaking. cracking racist jokes about yourself -.-" ohh chinese people are the most colourful people in the world! when they are angry they turn red, when they are tired they turn blue, when they are gonna die they turn green! so complicated. but for indians, one colour suits all! .. uh-huh -.-. lol. although he mostly talked abt rubbish that caught our attention, there was just one part where he asked us to write 5 goals. abt our future. or something. one of these things was if i would be financially stable in the future. im not now. my dad is jobless. my mum is working part time. my sister does tution while going to school. we barely even have enough to spend. but my parents are just all hiding this from me and my sis. they still let us use the aircon, tv, everything, when i off the aircon, they come in the middle of the night and on it back d-.-b yep. i really hope this bad patch goes away soon. please pray for me and my family. ): of course there were much more things on my mind other than those 5 things i wrote. but i shant talk about it. then there was this 2nd speaker. melvin. he's a gamer. lol. i liked the part where he said all girls go to the school of how to break up with your boyfriend. lol. hearing stuff and stories from everyone that i knew, the process of breaking up was EXACTLY the same. haha. the last guy was kinda boring. maybe cause we were all tired liao. i could tell he was getting a lil angry also. haha. pretty much slacked throughout.

but this lesson was really a reality check for me. i have to work hard. not just for myself. but for my family. i need to help support this family of mine in the future. i want to aim high. i wanna drive a bmw. i want to be earning around 10k a month. i want my parents to just relax at the end of it all. cause they just deserve it so much. sigh. ive gotta buck up.

i wanna tell you all about me.; but i just dont know how to put it.

2006-09-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

RAWR. PHOTO BLOG!

whats that?

olie and me

Go away. i need my beauty sleep.

LOL.

expo.sleepy.

uber dao.

12pm in the night.

Flyy.

Expo. Ties.

uh-huh. lol.

tired.

looking at the world.

blogger suddenly decided to stop letting me upload photos. hahaha. oh wells.

2006-09-03T18:47:00.000+08:00

3 days ago. i set off for STAR Encounter!

Ha. At first we went for games day. till 545. then me,wesley, gina, olivia and yuka went off early for encounter. haha. If you didnt know, encounter is a camp organised by our church (FCBC) so that we would be really able to encounter and know him. yeah. soo. we took mrt to kovan took bus. spent awhile looking for the correct place. we then settled down in our doms. made a few new friends. yep. i think hong sang(my cell leader) is really nice. he follow us all the way then b4 he left he prayed for us. (: haa. yep. so me and wes were in the same dom then gina olie and yuka were in the same dom. Our( me and wes) instructor was this really cool guy called James Lu. YAY. haha. he has super black eyebags. hahaha. anw.there wasnt really much on the first day. just got to know my dom mates and my group moree. haha. there was only one session. which was the intro.

Day 1: Altho it was just the intro. it was very nice. just starting off with worship and a short talk. then wathed a movie. we watch b4 in sch but nvm. haha. ( the one abt the guy in the hospital with luekimia* then he died) yep. haha. they also passed us a sin list. it was just this list of sins that ppl commit. may it be anything from sexual immoralities to generation curses. ya. then we were supposed to tick and write a short prayer. aft the session, me and wes just sat down and did the list when everyone was busy bathing. if i didnt read, i wouldnt even know i suffer from some of the things such as like reading horoscopes (thats following false gods!) altho it was just for fun. but. i really ticked alot of things. and just at that time, i felt so full of sin. after that, we did our bible study and prayed for each other. then took some retarded photos with the girls, bathed, ate supper, then off to sleep we went.

Day 2: This was the most busy day. we had 4 sessions, and 2 hrs of games. non stop. haha. the sessions were just abt Who God is, Sin, Solution to Sin, And water baptism. I wont talk about all of them but ill just talk abt the one which struck me,and mostly everyone the most.- Solution to Sin.

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." 1 John 1 :9

We watched another short clip. Of Passion of the Christ. While watching the vid, i just broke down. i didnt know that i had caused him so much suffering. He didnt even do anything wrong, yet he died on the cross for US. he was totally pure, free from all sin, he didnt deserve to die. But he did it all for us. Everytime we sin, we are just like nailing his hand onto the cross. We are the ones that caused him to die on the cross.

Jesus' blood that was shed on the cross paid for our freedom. heb 9:14, 22

aft the vid, some just continued staying in the room. worshiping and praying. i prayed so hard. i just felt like i wanted to be forgiven. so badly. and to just break me apart from everything thats being a burden to me. i prayed for all my friends too. for all their various problems. i think im begining to like praying. just like wesley. haha. anw. we went down to just rip our sin list apart and burn them in the fire. at that moment, i just felt so clean. so.. forgiven. it was just truly a miracle. there was so much praying. praying for each other. everyone. i just felt so.. safe. and warm and fuzzy on the inside. yep. that night was just all god. i really got to know all my dommates much more. ppl like jon.. and his friend HAHAHA and ben.. yep. i think.. ill get bapatized soon.. as soon as possible. cos.. Baptism is a command to be obeyed. yep. just more talking rubbish and pictures in the night. did bs again. had an early night.

Day 3: Yeah there was really much on the last day. just some sessions on having faith and where do we go after this. i have to say this was a really enjoyable experience and that i just took this camp as a chance to just let go of everything and strengthen my commitment to god. yep. darn. i want another one. haha.

Alrights. thats all.. People want me to play dota again -.-"

2006-08-30T20:45:00.000+08:00

sigh. 2 of of 5 is not good enough man. alright. enough about that.. today was teachers day celebrationn. it was okay lar. don really have much to say anw.i was on the bus back. then i slept on the 14 to clementi. i had this really weird dream.i felt like. i was falling. and falling. and there was no end. i couldnt hold on to any of the hands that tried to help me. then i suddenly woke up. realizing that the uncle was going to park his bus already. haha. but i think that dream was trying to tell me something very special.

everyones with somebody now. just makes me feel like having someone too. that.. kinda feeling. somehow i feel like i need it. but of course the feeling also needs to be right. or else there isnt really a point.

even though theres god, why do i still feel this.;
why do i feel like i want to be loved.

2006-08-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

hmm. nothing can beat you down harder than losing a dota game that your totally owning at the start.
i think ill quit bnet. and maybe ban myself from laggers and noobs on hamachi. it just feels like crap when you know you are owning on ur lane then some imba shit from another lane comes and own you in a few seconds just because your teammate was feeding him. oh wells. enough of dota..

for those of you who know why im at the downest of the downest of my life now. i trust you all wont tell anyone. really hope encounter would help me out. :/ its 11.36 but it feels like 8.30 to me. sigh. soccer today was okay.. better than i expected. although it wasnt really good, im sure it would improve. uh-huh. thats all for today. yep.

Dear Lord, Help Me Please.;
Im Suffering, All For You.

2006-08-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

i think i just found the intention.

oh well. im not going to blog this out. -.-"

2006-08-27T18:23:00.000+08:00

Take Me Deeper.; Deeper In Love With You.
Your Faithfulness Never Fails.

Woo. Back from church. let me start off from yesterday. haha. woke up at 7.40 to realize i could have woke up at 8.30. *ahem* then.. got changed and went off to lavender to make ic with rophi. (she was late) anw. the auntie is really retarded and she keep calling us by our chinese names. haha. it was really fast. like 15mins then finish alr. so we went to raffles for breakfast. thenn i had to go off to bukit merah for my pre encounter lesson.. haha. i cant wait mann. 2 days of school, 2 holidays and finally encounter CAMP!!! for 3 days then i go for church right after that. haha. then aft my lesson i had to rush back down to school for my stupid adventure make up lesson. amazingly we didnt get any scolding this time. haha. aft the adventure me nat benliew and liangfu were playing in the bb room for uber long. then we play uno stacko and carrom ,loser pump 10. haha. then at the end we were SUPPOSED to wait for all the gb girls to come back then we pump in the middle of the parade square. haha. i was supposed to do 70 la! nat 50 liangfu 40 and benliew10 -.- lol. anw we didnt in the end. cos the gb nvr came back. hahaha. then we were doing drill for fun.i dunno why. but it IS uber fun. haha.
went to church tdy. i havent been going for 2 weeks. really glad i could go tdy. (if you didnt notice this is the first time i can go out on sunday AND saturday) haha. worship was great. i cried at the alter call. haha. i think crying is good. as quoted from jerome 'helps relieve stress' haha.
talked to sophia last night. i havent really been talking to her. but the words she said really.. i cant find the word.. err.. made me very happy. haha. 'we dont need to talk for months. but i can trust on our friendship enough to know that i can count on you anytime even if i never talk to you for like.. 3-4 mths.. :)' that just felt really nice. haha. and really we havent been talking for like 3 mths. haha. as i was telling her last night, i realized i just cant open up to people about what i really feel inside. sometimes people just dont understand so i jus surpress it to myself though i need to tell someone. 'and altoho everyone says' TelLGod' WHICH IS TRUE.. but sitll you wld want a friend that God sends to talk to you right.. ' yes. RIGHT. oh well. some things i needa settle myself. haha. but church really helped today. (:

why does this line keep ringing in my head.
;'but mence. you really have no intention to move on right..'

2006-08-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

"DUDE. you almost got killed by a bus!"
sounds like a line from some video game i played. okay nvm. haha. but seriously. what the heck was i doing man. walking like it was my grandfathers road. haha. oh well. i was just in a daze. haha. that was so darn embrassing. aye.the term is finally ending. and that means all my work is done. means a lil slack time b4 the final lap. the eoys. ah. i dun wanna retain. haha. i know it sounds quite impossible but im telling you it IS possible. i have to manage my time between my studies, cca and my friends. i dont know why. but it seems like a season that my friends are all facing problems. makes me kinda gloomy too. Rar. i dun wanna wake up so early tml.. stupid rowfee. alright. im sleeping soon. tata.

Arr. Your eyes are just so darn beautiful.

2006-08-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

ohhhhh and its a miraclee~

got 22 for a physics test i never studied for. i think ill be passing all of my subjects this term. hopefully. (: chinese.. i still have many many. haha. but ill do it. thanks to everyone who lend/ gave me their jianbaos. haha. i dont know why. but ive been.. i meant. i talk like i sing. yeah. haha. maybe its just me being high. ive been drinking too much coke lately. wont anyone help me? and guess wad! my hair is softer now! haha woo. thank god for conditioner. ah. sometimes i really cant stand the bb ppl. what are rules for if you dont even use them. now our room is like open to everyone la. like free liddat. oh well. cant be bothered. i dont have a say anyway. REMEMBER? haha. and i just realized paul 2hill sings not bad chinese okay! haha. oh well. gotta prepare myself for tmr. gonna be another long day. i almost fell asleep in mdm tohs class tdy. then she bang my table :X haha. ive been having weird dreams lately. i think its trying to tell me something. but i really dont know. or maybe.. i just dont want to accept it.

ah. those were the times.; but.
i doubt you remembered anything.

2006-08-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

dun blame me. i got bored.

01 How does the world see me?Clay Aiken; I Will Carry You. ( Lol? Sure ill carry everyone)
02 Will I have a happy life?Akon; Mr Lonely (OMGWTFBBQ)
03 What do my friends really think of me?Norah Jones; Peace ( I highly doubt so.)
04 Do people secretly lust after me?Story of the year; Sidewalks
05 How can you be happy?Planetshakers; Running After You
06 What should I do with my life? Foo Fighters; Times like these
07 Why must life be so full of pain?MCR; Thank You for the venom
08 Will I ever have children? Relient K; Which to bury,us or the hatchet (I think the children)
09 Will I die happy? Oasis; Guess god thinks im abel
10 What is some good advice from me?Snow Patrol - how to be dead ( LMAO)
11 What is happiness?Blur - Girls and boys ( yeah!! oops.)
12 What's my favourite fetish? The all american rejects; straightjacket feeling.
13 How will I be remembered? The used; bulimic
14 What is your love life like? Michelle branch; Goodbye to you. (EH WTH)
15 What's your life motto? Jet; Are you gonna be my girl
16 What do your parents think of you?Nickelback; this is how you remind me
17 What's your favourite hobby?The used; Let it bleed. (...)
18 What does your best friend really think of you?Yellowcard; Only One(woah lol)
19 What's the worst thing about you?The calling; wherever you will go
20 Describe your mind.Santana, Michelle branch; Game of love.(ahem.)
21 How will you die?Embrace; Natures Law. (wow. haha)
22 How does your crush feel about you? Dashboard Confessional; So beautiful (Wooo! Whoever you are.)
23 What is your wedding going to be like?Busted; Everything i Knew.
24 What about your honeymoon?IYellowcard; Way away.(YAY!)
25 Describe the last day of your life. Adam sandler; i wanna grow old with you.( (: )
26 Why does life suck? Yellowcard; Miles apart. (WHY SO MANY YELLOWCARD)
27 Why does life rule?Hillsongs; Better than life. ( YAy)
28 What will you be famous for?Eminem; When im gone.( damn i rock.)
29 What's the craziest thing you'll ever do?All american rejects; Dance dance
30 Will you achieve your goals? Mcfly; Hypnotised
31 What will your future job be like? Michelle branch; all you wanted
32 Your party life?Suede; Trash. (thats very nice... -.-)
33 Overall, will you be happy? Yellowcard; rocket. (LOL)
34 Or will you just deal with it? Chad kroeger; hero(yeah!)

2006-08-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

doo daa dee..
whoo. came back from school so early tdy. i ate a pack of chips and drank a coke. haha. at this rate im really gonna get fat. yay!! fat = not skinny. but thats not the kinda fat i want. haha. i want muscle fat! okay nvm. its not like i dont have enough. haha.schools been so.. full of problems lately. the end of the terms coming. and everyone is just rushing out their homework. and for me. its like a mountain. aha. 15 jianbaos? wow.and theres more. haha. oh wells. gotta go do some later.. but for now.. ill play some quake 3!! haha. eh it really rocks la. check it out. and if you dl can play with me. haha. here here.

http://www.download.com/Final-Quake-III-Arena-demo/3000-7563_4-1478530.html?tag=lst-0-1

tada.. anw. dotas getting too boring.. too much ownage. haha. just kidding.why are all my good games in the lan shop. if not ill be uploading everything alr. and i realized theres actually alot of people coming to my blog but not tagging anything. haha.anw thanks everyone. for everything. haha. im kinda over it already. it may refer to 2 things. haha. alright. im off.

i want to care.; but you just wont let me.

2006-08-20T13:50:00.000+08:00

The rules:Bold the statements that are true to you.Italise the statements that you WISH are true.Leave the Fibs alone.Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

2006-08-20T13:01:00.000+08:00

ah. just back from lunch at clementi with wesley. now the busy period is over. time to choing studies alr. hah. musical was quite cool. and touching. somehow. haha. yeps. i think blogger is very stupid. and it doesnt want to upload images for me. haha. and it always end up at this picture.

haha. oh wells. i think the primary school part was totally out of point. like the medicine part. i guess they were just trying to lengthen the performance. haha. but overall the whole thing was quite cute.after that went out the plaza sing for supper then cabbed home. uber tired. haha.

ugh. you always sound so dead. yes, you. i just want somebody who i can share my everything with. a friend. is that too much to ask for? i want the old you back.

2006-08-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

Forevermore.;

arr. i feel so darn cheated. if they dont even appreciate wad i do. then what the hell do i do it for. id be better off getting 0 cca points and have more time to study. what i have contributed is.. one of the most compared to others in the company, i dare say. ive been in almost every event planning commitee existed. just because they are all triple science doesnt mean they can screw around and dun do anything and get high positions JUST because they are triple science. its just not right. not giving the combi and double science streams any positions. do you know im like. almost nothing in the company now. if they are all the bigshots in the company then go handle the things all by yourself then. dont ask me for help dammit. i know all of you must be thinking that im just making a fuss out of nothing. but i know i deserve it. all the time ive spent contributing to my cca amounts to nothing in the end. hurray! and you think like this my juniors will respect me as before? theyd probaly be like.'oh that guy who was in charge last time is nothing now!!!' yay!!! i dont get it. i know nothing can change this FACT. well. this really means alot to me. but i just wanna type it all out and relieve my stress. like i always do. And why must you always be the one. the one who takes away everything i want but i can never have. its always like this. when im just so freaking close to getting it, your name will just pop out. i dont want to hate you. i dont think youve done anything wrong. i think youre a great friend. but somehow you just always get in my way. what to do. what to do. sometimes id just want you to dissapear. but its just not right. its never right. ugh. ive changed my mind. im not donating my mini fridge to the bb room.

whats this feeling stopping me.
stop it. i dont want us to drift anymore.

2006-08-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

All the Heavens shout Your praise
All creation bows to worship You.;

omg. thats just so darn sad. im not being gay in any way. but yeah. i wont reveal who this is going out to. but yeah. youll know. i admit. im just super duper blessed. and im very lucky. i didnt mean to like make you jealous or anything in anyway. but yeah. you sound like me. the old me. so gay and happy on the outside but yet so lonely and sad on the inside. that was before i redelicated my life to god. heh. anihoos. if you need anyone to talk to, ill be there. im not entirely the kind of person who you think is good with comforting people or whatever, but ill try my best. cause thats whats friends are for. (: although you sound like the loudest and most noisy retarded dude ive ever met in my life, im sure you have a soft side too. haha. sometimes bottling things up is really..needed? in a sense. but not too much. dude. theres no such thing has having too many good friends. why wouldnt someone want to not have too many good friends. haha. and about your brother.. just have faith and trust in the lord. yes? ill be praying for you. i know its been hard on you.

and for the other guy.. watch your temper. haha.

special thanks to julia, nicolette for the greeeeeeeeen slippers and chingyang and yeongchuan for the shirt which i forgot to put ur name. haha. AND. JEREMY TAN YI RONG. for his almightly and great present which is yet to come. uh-huh. and sorry yibei for eating your chocolates. and GINA. *very special thanks*. :D haha. THANKS TO SAMUEL FOR HIS THAI EXPRESS TREAT.

How Wonderful
How Beautiful
Name above every name
Exalted high.

I Will Sing Forever
Jesus I Love You.

2006-08-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

today was the best. thank you everyone. (:

lets go down the list. in order that i recieved. heh.
rachel rophi laura cheryl - Thanks for the cd!! i really love it. haha. im listening to it now la. woo. and its signed too! thanks again! love ya!
aiwee joy - haha. thanks for the balloooon! i know youre just trying to make me look gay for the rest of the day or something. hahaha. still.. thanks!!!
nicol david - I got a super shock la. haha. you all told me you had no money. then i thought you all just gave me the middle finger iron on thingy. haha. then tdy you all suddenly pop out with one more pink volcom shirt and its freaking LIMITED EDITION. omg you guys rock la. hahahaha. THANKS!
yibei - thanks for the hair conditioner. hahaha. i hope it didnt cost too much. since the big one is supposedly $99. hahahaha. THANKS! (:
joanna julia - thanks for your spastic cards!! hahaha.
jeremy tian and amar - omgosh thanks. i had a nice surprise. i really wasnt expecting a present from you guys. thank you so much. heh. csfc all the way. from your number 15.

the next one is gonna be really long.
jarold mark belda jiawei gina cuifen sophie songyang deme shawn yuka isaac debbie olivia wesley darren eunice jerome jeremy luke - haha. i really cant stand it. you all are the best. haha. you will never know how much that watch means to me. and i really didnt expect it. until i got some hints from shawn ching and jiawei and may. haha. then gina try to bluff me by telling me it was something else. hahaha. i know ive made you all spend alot alot alot of money. haha. thank you everyone. really. if you were there you would know how i was feeling. thank you all so much. love ya ALL.

heres a few random shoutouts to ppl. kat haha thanks i know youve been making that card. :D neo you said you will treat me. hahaha. (: julia owe me present! and thanks to those who said happy birthday to me. (: ppl like kenneth, wenhui, liangfu, ben, neo, leon, caleb, terrance, may, sammi, and many others. sorry if i missed your name. haha. :) and thanks to all the bb guys. for the great whacking. uh-huh. yes. haha. ANDD that group of ppl who saved the cake for me. haha. eating with a spoon -.-. yeah. thanks!(delci yanling joy rophi rachel nat jingming nicol chingyang.) haha. :) THANKS!!! i really love my class.

thank you everyone really. not just for today, but for all the great times we had together. (: and. planetshakers cd really rocks. hahaha. alright. TATA!. (:

2006-08-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

updated my wishlist.. for a very simple reason. HEHEHEHh.

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!

Take Me Higher Baby.

2006-08-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

The clear and distinct line of loving and being loved

well russell. i think its being loved for you. arrg. its another down period. but i had fun today. haha. happy national day. and happy birthday russell. really envy russell. i wonder if my friends will actually do something like that for me too. sigh. my results have really been going downhill again. its like super inconsistent. cant go out with my friends tml. just cause my parents wanna go out. really screwed up la. sigh.came home really late. like 11.30. i always come home late. then i have no time to do things. arr..

For just one more moment with you.

2006-08-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

what happens later, will be taken care of later?
thats just so wrong.

whew. its 11.15 in the night. i really should be sleeping now. cos tml i have my ndp and stuff. and meeting liangfu for breakfast at macs.. at 5.30.. haha. sigh. got really bored just now. then i just stumbled upon some chat logs. and some archives in blogs. started to read some posts that were posted really long ago. oh well. looking back, i really dont know if life was any better. haha.

Memory;
Fading from the mind like a melody
Tangled in the reverie of time
It's so hard to say goodbye.

ah. suddenly i feel like drinking again. but no i wont. zzz. yea. i enjoy being an emokid. so what.? its just stupid how my playlist suddenly plays a random song that goes with my mood. i guess thats why its called my playlist. it knows everything about me. heh. lifes better now. but not entirely 'great'. and im really thankful for my class. really. they make me feel so family. so loved. its been a very long time since i felt like that.. thank you all.sigh. i better get some sleep. hopefully ill get to sleep in about half an hour. unlike last night. about 3 whole hours. trying to get to sleep. haha.

i love you. and theres nothing you can do about it.

2006-08-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

haha. signed out of school tdy. it wasnt really anything serious. oh well. haha. im totally stuck on ronin. cant believe a local band could rock so much. heh. oh well. tml's national day celebration. anyone wanna go out soon? :D lotsa holidays coming.. heh.time for dinner. taa.

Paint a picture in my mind
A life I had but left behind
Baby when you call my name will you still care

2006-08-05T17:20:00.001+08:00

ONE MORE MOMENT
music composed and arranged by Ronin

VERSE 1
Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
And out on a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

PRE CHORUS
And the words that seem so hard so say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

CHORUS
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

VERSE 2
Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes byLike a distant memory
And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

PRE CHORUS
CHORUS

BRIDGE
Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

RONIN is a one successful band from Singapore.
This song is especially nice.
Introduced by my cousin lol.

GET IT FROM ME!

2006-08-05T12:53:00.000+08:00

hey! blogger bot is nice to me today. haha. shall put up some pictures from yesterday.. haha.

outside cathay. we are family! haha.

after movie! some missing people went toileting.

this photo is named boys+eunice. haha. so extra la! -.- look at shawns face. ha.

aha. yeah. it was fun wasnt it. heh.

2006-08-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

Forever And Ever, Babe.

im super stupid la. haha. i like girls stuff. i think girls stuff are like super cool la.. can mix and match. haha. okay anw.. yeah. today was founders day.. then go school at 9.30 end at 12.. so lame la.. so many prizes to give out. hah. then aft tt went to town.. with shawn, issac, jeremy, deme, jiawei, songyang, sophie, gina, debbie, eunice, olivia, mark and luke. went to watch CLICK!. stupid but nice show. really really nice. haha. ate birthday cake outside the new cathay. took retarded pictures. haha. then we walk all the way to plaza sing.. from cathay. then some ppl had to leave. went to play pool for awhile.. haha. the uncle is really nice. haha. then almost everyone left except me olie and gina. then we went walking around town.. looking for things. like colourful belts and clothes.i like shopping actually. but i just dont want ppl to think that.. yeah. its kinda wrong that im a guy and i like shopping. but oh well. haha. I WANT A RAINBOW BELT. and i want that watch. UGHHHHhhhhh. and i want that nike shoe. and... i want alot of things. haha walk from ps to heeren to paragon to taka to wisma. then go home. haha. stupid la. we go quicksilver shop then got 30% AND 20% on top of that!. but it was closed. for NO REASON. hah. dumb dumb. me and olie share similar taste. HA. but gina was jealous so she keep making fun of me. ha. cool. i got new ikea cups. okay nvm. anw aft tt took mrt home.. stopped at clementi with gina. then went to bossini and baleno and girdano yup. i hate hang ten. haha. and i nvr been to top shop b4. haa. i got a $49 jeans at 24.50! hahahaha. okay nvm. then i got 2 polo teeeeees. pink and green. haha. shop shop..

Happy belated gina and shawn!.(:

Will You Still Love Me In The Morning?;

2006-08-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

Wow.
sex is like math, add the bed, minus the clothes,divide the legs, and pray that u dun multiply.

HAHAHA. thats some random thing i found on some random blog. mmhmm. tdys physics test was quite okay.. tml got emaths. sigh. i think ill pon chinese tml. the work.. ah. darnnnnn. yeah. nt much to update about. quite tired today. haha. HAHA. okay nvm. yeh. ill sleep early tonight. XD. ta.

Listening To- Oasis; Stop Crying Your Heart Out.

2006-07-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

Although my world may fall;
Ill never let you go.

wow. what is the world coming to? my parents dont allow me to be christian? seriously. what in the world. im super pissed off. i just quarrelled with them like siao. slammed the door and locked it. just because they arent doesnt mean i cant. and what rubbish, going to church affectts my studies?! i think it lightens my load up more la. ugh. i will cut down but i definately wont stop going. tsk. just back from ycgc. i think i was quite meaningful and i would have gone anyway. (regardless of gina tan calling me irresponsible and making me feel bad cos i dont like to be called that.) yes. a busload of tests coming up in this week.. then can slack. darn it la. school is gonna be bad tmr. please please dont irritate me. unless ive decided to start the day with a smile.

&Your Eyes Are Just So Beautiful.;

2006-07-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

dont take too long to say i love you to the ones you love;
cos time has a habit of slipping away.

Taadaaa..Hai. my last source of entertainment, gina tan, has just gone offline. haha. im gonna drown myself in a whole tube ritz crackers and ice milo dinosuars. now i wonder why i skipped dinner. haha. so many things coming up in both school and church. gcyc,fop,ps concert, musical, tests, blablabla. and alot of ppls birthdays coming also.. haha. i needa buy new clothes, new jeans, and alot of new stuff soon.. and i still havent got my watch.. UGH.. i wan great singapore sale again.. on the watch.. haha. this is so gonna cost a bomb. sigh. i also dunno why i like analong watches. makes me feel more classic. i dont like digital. heh. im halfway thru my roll of crackers.. haha. i should be sleeping. its 11.30 in the night.. haha. i just realized something.. GOT 50% OFF AT FOX! haha.. i just saw.. under my msn convo browser.. yay.. shopshop. sia la.. now ghost month. haha. somemore this years lasts for 2mths instead of one.. scary lei.. i think i saw something yesterday.. haha.dont wanna talk abt it. haha. alot of ppl think ghost month shouldnt go swimming esp in the sea.. haha. cos they scared something grab their leg LOL. i think i shouldnt go home so late anymore.. haha. eek. hais.. i havent eat finish.. so i shall stay around and crap a lil more..guess wad! my birthday week got no test.. haha. shoik rite.. and that week have musical. yay..haha. sing sing sing. okay actually its not about singing.. haha. i like my shoes. alot. heh. Mence +10) xD

no more waking up to innocence, say hello to hesitance.

2006-07-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

heres a super short post. haa. had GOH training on friday.. so gay. stand for 3hours.. zzz. went to play lan and pool tdy.. nth much to talk abt yeah.. been rather moody. lets hope tmls church will cheer me up.

i miss the old you.
its just so.. different.

2006-07-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

tada? HAHA. picture of the day. owning in the firebush.
okay quite long ago.. but who cares.

sigh. tdy was better. in the sense that.. ah. nvm. and tml will be better. i hope. haha. maths test was easy. super easy. chinese was gay as ever. and. the rest of the day was quite the same. yeah. adventure meeting tml.. so gay. yay. we found a bow.. okay nvm. can anyone help me with mole.. please?

This Is How You Remind Me.

2006-07-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

no, theres somethings i just dont like to share.

not entirely feeling very happy now. ive been trying so hard. then it just hits you in the face again. i dont know how im supposed to respond. i usually ignore it. walk away. whatever. but it just dont feel right inside. sometimes people just dont understand. and its all driving me fcuking crazy.

just leave.;
please.please.please.

from aiwees blog
dont mind me, it just seems to be a bad time of the month, or maybe the year, when everyone's feeling down, moody, broody, krabby, whatever-by. temper fuses are getting frequent, and irritated snaps at others are common too. just hope this phase will pass quickly. maybe it has to do with the weather, like it's kinda warm nowadays.

oh. im telling you youre damn right about that.

2006-07-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

I would give my world to lift you up;
I could change my life to better suit your mood.

Haha. darren came to church tdy. wee? uh-huh. bought new shoe tdy. hurray... i needa cut my hair soon.. gonna get caught soon. haha.! Nth Much To Update La. Oh yeah. playing for csfc.. for past vs present. haha. so coOl. not my fault bb dont wanna make a team. sigh.. no money le.. slipper 27 dollars, shoe 78, now needa buy jersey 30 dollars.. -.- and some moron dun wanna return me money. haha. happy bdae wesley.. just feeling a lil moodless now.

Cause Youre So Smooth.

2006-07-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

wow. today was really a miracle. haha.
me and david went to town earlier tdy.. supposed to meet sam and nicol at 3.. then we went walk around town. for fun.. then we ate and got lost.. then when we went back to orchard mrt to meet them it was already 3.30! then sam and me had no phone. nicols phone got spoilt by david who press press press until puk code. HAHAHAHAHA. so only david had a phone. then me and david rush down to the mrt and see if can find anyone. then we found samuel. hahaha. then he was like 'i just realized how big orchard mrt is' not realizing how tyco he was to have found us. then we walk in. and we found nicol just walking out of the scanner thingy. hahaha. so cool la. then we decided not to watch pirates. cause we all suddenly didnt feel like watching. thennnn we walk around town and outside town. and my slipper BROKE. ugh. lol. we walked to the new cathay. haha. then we played lan at far east. then after tt sam left. then me nicol and david went to pacific to get me new slippers. walaaooo. cheat my feelings la. the lighting was dim.. so i tot the slipper was black and it looked nice.. then i bought it. then aft tt i realized it was blue!!!. BLUE.. i dont like blue. yeah. anw. 27 bucks! for something blue! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. haha then david left then me and nicol wanted to watch pirates haha. but no timing. so we went to play pool. and everyone read this. I WON NICOL 5-0. in your face. HAHA. okay nvm. then went home. waited a gazillion years for the bus. then i found russell on it. haha. then took the bus home.. listen ipod until no bat.. then sleep.. then finally reach home. haha. what a tiring day. tml still have church. yeah. looking forward to it. haha.

I hear you whisper and the words melt everyone;
but you stay so cool.

2006-07-20T19:35:00.000+08:00

ahh. this is the life.
sis at camp. mum at cruise. dad at work till 12. woah. haha. darn it. got 2 tests tml. rarr. and my own dinner (whole can of chicken soup) is still very hot. and im sweating. im uber bored. wont someone just talk to me. haha.

&we'll dance inside the song.

2006-07-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

Its hard to walk this path alone;
hard to know which way to go.

wahh. haha. so fast. and its wednesday alr. quite busy this week.. at least i can enjoy myself on friday sat and sun. haha. no bb. WOOO. twohills gonna get voted out soon. hha. ive been really tired. but i dunno what keeps me going. aha. two tests on friday. wish me luck. I GOT 10/10 FOR AMATHS CLASS TEST. IN YOUR FACE. WOOOOO. okay not that big of a deal. but it is to me. and i really like mr liew. he talks really slow. like reeeeeaaaaaaalllyyyyyy slow. but he rocks. yes. I LIKE CirCLES. poo. darn. ginas neck is okay alr. hahaa. supposed to go swensens tdy. but went pizza hut instead. cos of SOME PEOPLE. yeah.

love the way i feel today.

2006-07-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

*hint hint* 14august is coming!!!

church was good. haha. i was in a rush so i just grabbed any shirt and wore it. and i wasnt thinking properly. that includes not thinking about wearing my tie. yes gina. haha. everyone was calling me stupid names in farewell. cos of the tie. haha. my chemical romance HAHA. sometimes i cant stand myself. why the heck did i wear a tie. actually its quite cool. haha. anw. farewell was quite good. successful. other than my part. ugh. but most of the boys enjoyed themselves. thankfully. actually this is the first time ive 'failed'. arr. let it be a learning experience. im quite glad with myself this week. ive actually learnt to put myself in others shoes. alot. yah. and i dont know why. but there just this great feeling. when you help someone. i want to care for others, like how jesus cares for me. hmm. haha. no vulgarites by the end of this month. its gonna be quite a challenge. but ill do it. haha.

well; ive been holdinggg on tonight.

2006-07-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

ugh. now ive got a headache. just came back from bukit merah. pool. and a nice chat at macs with jerome. its amazing how many things we have gone through when we look back. regardless of relationships, friendships, studies or just anything else. there were so many things left behind that we still didnt clear up. and ive realized just how much being a christian has impacted me. jerome told me that our cell was spritually bonded. in a way. haha. we got pretty irritated and angry easily this week. esp me wesley and jerome. then ben and a few others had really bad stomachaches. so bad that they couldnt come for cell. it may sound a lil stupid. but its actually true.& its all so amazing. just a lil note to a few of my friends who are going thru a bad patch in their life now, yea. cheer up and be strong okay? god will always be there for all of us. yup. and ill also be praying for you guys. and girls. (:

Love Dont Give No Reason.

2006-07-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

ive got a sudden urge to play pool. with jerome. or wesley. and talk about stuff also. its a great way to destress. and theres just alot of things running through my mind now. school is just.. getting to me. im just not showing it. i was so close to just.. losing it. but its all good. tml got photo taking.. for bb.. need to wear full u.. haha. aiya. actually. i have no mood to blog. so what am i doing here?

whenever i count my blessings;
i always count you twice.

2006-07-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

Shes a beautiful disaster.

ahh. quite busy nowadays. yep. schoool hates me. haha. but bb is doing quite well.. considering that the farewell commitee is rather new.. and barely have any past experience. yep. good job guys. i am quite the slacker these few days. haha. got tests on friday.. ugh. went to swensens today. ate very little (amazing). yes. and dont tell me to get BETTER people. what ya mean by that. all my friends are special to me in one way or another. yep. and i was really disgusted that you of all people said that.

ah. i think i have the phobia of making the first move.
anw.. BUNNY!

hehehe. so cute. okay nvm.

you remind me of the time when i knew who i was.

2006-07-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHH. I CANT STAND IT.
but i have to.

my mums FREAKING unreasonable. ugh. study also scold dun study also scold. THEN STUDY FOR WAD. yah. anw. putting that aside. tdys been pretty much a crummy day. couldnt go to church. either i go out on saturday or sunday. and since saturday had SCHOOL. i cant go out on sunday. wow. so much sense. screw off la.. darn it. make so much noise..
i wanted to do something just now. but i was just so darn pissed at my mum. i forgot. and now its too late. freak this.

let me lose myself.
and tear myself to pieces.

go italy.

2006-07-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

we never had it easy;

darn cow. tdys friday. and it felt like a saturday.. hahah. sch ened at 12. and then..the fun started. haha. my duty for moe is tmr.. yea. -.-"we went to play lan.(me nicol david chingyang) yes. haha. but we played super short.. improvement i guess. then we went walking around.. everywhere.. ate long johns.. talked about the fun times.. walked more.. then i saw this beautiful watch and i wanted to make it mine.

Then i asked the guy if i could see it. then i was like waah.. its darn nice la.. then flip around..$199. WTH. -.- gayness. i can buy another crumpler la. lol. but its super nice.. i just cant bear to buy it.. lol. then went off.. from there can go 5 places. go HOME, CHURCH, MORE LAN, ORCHARD or SOCCER. it was a weird decision. lol. but in the end i ended up with HOME and CHURCH andddd SOCCER. haha. went home then choing to clementi to meet jerome and wesley for cellat 7.30. its really meaningful la. in a way. haha. yea. sorry i cant join yall on sunday. ): then we played soccer.. till 11 plus. haha. then cuifen gina belda and ruth also come. dunno for wad.. haha. i just know my knee is STILL loose. haha. arr. MOE TMR!.

ps. REPLY ME!

everytime it feels like im gonna make it;
then it all falls apart.

2006-07-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

Im a busy boy. with a busy life. darn im busy.
mornign woke up at 3.00am to watch italy own GERMAN ASS! WOOO
then went sch.. i missed the bus.. hahahaha. okay nvm. then school.. so gay.
freaking hell.. chinese test was worse than hell. hahaha.
then aft school.. got gay MOE EXCELFEST BREIFING.. breif dunno how long. and it forced me to eat my mee pok and drink my coke in.. 3 MINS ask nicol. yes i rock. then got BB MEETING.. FAREWELL GAYS.. i mean farewell committee.. my games rock la. HEHEHEHEHEH. nvm. nowadays im freaking high.. ask everyone. hahaha. dunno why. then aft my farewell things played soccer awhile.. and then went to meet jerome and hongsan at bukit merah.. haha. for church thingy. haha. mm. then followed jerome to queensway. walk walk. talk talk. yea. then came back.. haha. yup. i think hersheys kissables are damn nice. i like the name. hahaha. yeap. muacccccccks. haha. and my knee feels damn loose. i need a knee guard thingy.. yea. as in really. or my knee is just gonna die someday. haha.

portugal will win world cup... go ronaldo.. get more ppl red carded!

i hope things will be the same again. theres no rush.

2006-07-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

Consume Me from the inside out Lord.

RAR!. damn. EVERYONE has chinese test tmr. (HAHAHAHAH) okay nvm. i dun feel like studying. and i wanan watch world cup tmr morning.. haha. my class is full of smart slackers. HAHA, i was like. is there chinese test tmr? then. ya there is. but do i look like i care? i wanna watch world cup tmr. then i was like.. -.-" hahahahahAH. anw.. ppl tag my board.. its quite boring. hahaha.

my heart and my soul; i give you control.

2006-07-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

Damn im bored.

LAST PERSON WHO...
Slept in your bed: MEEEe.
Made you cry: hmm? dont rmb.
You shared a drink with: errr cuifen? lol
You went to the movies with: amar,liangfu,jem,leon and ben.
You went to the mall with: hmmmmmmmmm. its been a long time. haha.
Yelled at you: err my teacher? MDM TOH... -.-"
Sent you an e-mail: joel wong? hahaha
You kissed: i havent kissed anyone since like when i was 5 or something when i kissed my mum. lol.

HAVE YOU EVER...
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yeap.
Wish you were the opposite sex?: lol.neverrr.
Had an imaginary friend?: YES. HAHAHA.
Red or blue?: red! duh.
Spring or fall?: fall.
Last noise you heard?: HERE WITHOUT YOU - 3 DOORS DOWNN.
Things you like in a guy/girl?: niceness. haha. actually its just the feel.
Do you have a crush on someone?: nah.
What book are you reading now?: i hate books.
Worst feeling in the world: when it hurts so bad you wanna kill yourself.
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: am i dreaming? loll.
How many rings before you answer?: mostly 1 or 2.if im near the phonee. haha.
Future daughter's name: how the heck would i know?
Future son's name: "
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: right!
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?: d-d-d-duh!
Siblings: just one.
Piercings: nah. imma good boy.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.not now.

THE EXTRA STUFF...
Do you do drugs? DUH NO. except medicine. lol.
Do you drink?: yeah. haha. oops. :x
What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: herbal essence, sunsilk(wtf) , dove.
What are you most scared of?: hmmm. many many things.
What clothes do you sleep in?: shorts.
Who is the last person who called you?: some guy who wanted to go for supper at 1130pm. but i didnt have his/her number. and my dad picked up -.-
Where do you want to get married?: in.. a church? :D
If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?: i wanna..be able to get wad i want. haha.
Favorite number: 27.9 ANDDD 14.
Been In Love?: secret. muahahaha.
What Type Automobile Do You Drive: i dont drive -.- .
Are You Timely Or Always Late: i used to be always late. but now im always on time. cos i dont have my phone.
Do You Have A Job: yeap.
Do You Like Being Around People: yes!!!!!
Are you for world peace: screw the universe.
Are you a health freak: nahh.

STUFF...
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: nah. i have a chance with everyone. :D
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: ah damn you.
Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: not really. heh.
Do you Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: maaaaaaaaybe.
Ever liked a close boy/girl friend: uhhhhhhhhhhh?
Are You Lonely Right Now: naaaaaah.
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: duh no. everyone wants me ;)
Do You Want Kids: definately.

FAVOURITE...
Room in house: my room.
Memory: secret
Day Of The Week: SUNDAY.
Color: green and red and white and black.
Perfume and/Or Cologne: hmm?
Month: november.
Season: winter.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
Cried: nope.
Bought Something: yeap.
Gotten Sick: nopee.
Sang: i sing all the timee! haha.
Said I Love You: its part of a song. hahaha.
Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: YESS!
Met Someone New: YES! haha.
Had A Serious Talk: nope.
Missed Someone: yeah.
Hugged someone: nahh
Kissed someone: nope.
Fought With Your Parents: nope.
Dreamt About Someone You Can't Be With: nope?

2006-07-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

a hundred days have made me older; since the last time that i saw your pretty face.

aha. yesterday was a blast. woo. friday didnt seem to have the nicest timetable in the world. but . who cares. bb was okay. haha sec 3s were in charge for the first time. clap. and chinese oral just almost had to destroy our whole parade. anw. all was well. and aft tt played soccer for awhile. then for some super retarded reason, gina was like ' we are going to be late' then i had to leave. and not play soccer. lol. i didnt even know so many ppl were going la. haha. we took a bus. then we walked. and walked and walked. and walked. and we finally reached the bbq place. haha. there were many ppl. and i even made some new friends. lol. and ive realized that. gina has somehow influenced many many ppl. to become as retarded as her. yesyes. almost 1/3 of us were from fairfield. as in the whole cell la. haha. darren kennedy me jerome wesley gina olie eunice debbie qilin cuifen and yuka. haha. so many la. anw. there were really fun icebreakers. which i enjoyed. haha. wesley cant play the animal game. xD. bbqed. played pool. played stupid games. mingled around. took many many pictures. AND tHEY HAVE THIS REALLY COOL TOILET. with this.. thing that looked like that thing from dark waters. if you watched the show. ^^ hmmm. ah. then had to go home. it was 1030. haha. so sad. took more pictures. then had to go homeee. haha. it rocked la really. when im with them i can really feel like we are family? lol in a way la. yeap. woke up tdy. went to sch for first aid.. then went to watch scary movie 4. haha. its really stupid. haha. they make the ju-on kid sound like a cat. hahahahahaha. Put your mind to it. xD. only amar jem ben liangfu and leon would understand. haha. really. one of the stupiest movies ive watched. YEAaaaa. its 1am. and im going to church later. FCBC. (: nono that aint some cool short form thing. its just the name of the church. haha. k. TAAAAAA.

somehow it feels like a really long time..