Thursday, August 17, 2006
Forevermore.;arr. i feel so darn cheated. if they dont even appreciate wad i do. then what the hell do i do it for. id be better off getting 0 cca points and have more time to study. what i have contributed is.. one of the most compared to others in the company, i dare say. ive been in almost every event planning commitee existed. just because they are all triple science doesnt mean they can screw around and dun do anything and get high positions JUST because they are triple science. its just not right. not giving the combi and double science streams any positions. do you know im like. almost nothing in the company now. if they are all the bigshots in the company then go handle the things all by yourself then. dont ask me for help dammit. i know all of you must be thinking that im just making a fuss out of nothing. but i know i deserve it. all the time ive spent contributing to my cca amounts to nothing in the end. hurray! and you think like this my juniors will respect me as before? theyd probaly be like.'oh that guy who was in charge last time is nothing now!!!' yay!!! i dont get it. i know nothing can change this FACT. well. this really means alot to me. but i just wanna type it all out and relieve my stress. like i always do. And why must
you always be the one. the one who takes away everything i want but i can never have. its always like this. when im just so freaking close to getting it, your name will just pop out. i dont want to hate you. i dont think youve done anything wrong. i think youre a great friend. but somehow you just always get in my way. what to do. what to do. sometimes id just want you to dissapear. but its just not right. its never right. ugh. ive changed my mind. im not donating my mini fridge to the bb room.
whats this feeling stopping me.stop it. i dont want us to drift anymore.
Tralalala.
