Sunday, December 11, 2005
its one am in the morning.. music can make you think of anything. it can change my mood. anytime. anws. ive thought it through. actually i still cant forget.i really cant. no matter how hard i try. but there isnt a point! things dont change just because you want them too. i hate it. worse then.. ughhh. its an indescribable feeling.
dawn. im the same as you. just a few steps ahead. sigh.
im not sure of anyone. but ive got plans.next year is gonna be so tough. i can feel it. coming. i hate this change. cant you. be the best and just stay like that. i hate this. change of environment. i hate being normal.i want to be different. more different than others. now my next aim is to get into a good jc. im looking at.. NJC. thats it. it will work out. somehow. my family alr has this shit of a finanical problem and i needa get a job straight after my studies.. and i dont wanna screw up. theres too much at stake.
imdifferent. i cant afford to play this game.so here i am. its in my hands. and ill
savour every moment of this.
i realized i just need to listen and absorb everything in class and it makes things alot easier. ill try that. and i hope it will work. ill still put aside lots of time to study. study hard. play hard. lets talk about studying first. (:
and. ill tell you one more thing.
i wont change.
Tralalala.
