Tuesday, May 31, 2005
i feel so faraway. even TODAY. even YESTERDAY.
ever since i got my report book...but i dont feel right.theres something wrong. Very Wrong.
I Feel Like Ive Done Okay.theres all these fun.happy.enjoyable stuff. Spending Money Like Water.
Spraying A Skateboard.Skateboarding.Playing Soccer. Buying New Stuff. Pink Socks.
but i feel nothingg.
like its this crappy report book thats stopping me from having fun.its not my friends.its me.
Damned Shit. I think about it all the time. what i dont make it.Im Suffering From Depression.
I Feel everything but happy.what if i dont meet up to my expectations.lalala..
Sometimes i just need someone. who actually cares. to really just. talk to me.I feel like just laughing at my own patheticness.if theres such a word.Everyone says ive done so well. if i say i did badly they'll just say im.. boasting.
cant believe i actually NEED for someone to talk to me. some people cant even tell that im not okay. whole day give me a black face.and making me give in to you.most of you dont really care anyway.its not your Problem whatever. like i give a shit about you. ill give you the finger if i have to.
Wheres Everything That I Want.? Theres More Than Just Black To This Post.
Theres White Too.
Tralalala.
