You.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Im feeling.irritated.pissed.angry.whatever you may call it. So many things happened.in the last hour.days.weeks. firstly i got back my report book which i find totally lousy.its not like i look down on my own class or anything like that. but i didnt top my class.and im really sad. whats more. its partly becayse of some of the teachers giving me crappy behavior marks.. i feel like killing them. what in the world did i ever do to them. and then the second thing. the damned chalet. how long do you want me to plan.how long do you want me to wait. you all piss me off. so what if im your 1a monitor.does that mean i have to cater to your every need? i tell you. some of you dont even mean that much to me.but luckily there are people like aiwee who understand how im feeling now. thankks.i cut my hand too.a deep one.and a long one too.i bandaged it.so its okay now. now again im here talking about my friends.if you already know.how im feeling.then why do you still do it? am i not good enough a friend for you to do a little something for me? just asking something like are you okay? would be nice. but no.. To me. some of you are more special. but im really dissapointed.more in those who i find more important to me. to be frank i would risk my own life for any single one of you.would you even do that for me? i guess not. since you cant even consider my feelings.life is a pain.smiling is a pain.being happy is a pain.can anyone tell me.what can i find happiness in.tell me.some of you have been helpful.some have tried to be helpful. either way. i thank you.even my squad boy ryan can ask me if im okay when he sees me unhappy. whole day only know how to goof around.laugh.and be happy ehh.? i dont like to be that kind of happy.this is going out to all those who are my friend.if you feel that you have been a good friend.im glad and proud to have you as my friend.for those who dont. i suggest you go do something. this isnt like a everyday thing.i dont get angry everyday. i prefer to keep smiling.for what? i dont know. i dont really care. even so. i hope that i have made your life slightly happier.even if it cost me alot of pain.
Tralalala.